Chapter 1129 - 839: Timing

It was evident that Jie Nianzhou seemed to have been holding back for a long time before uttering these words.

And after saying this, certain changes seemed to occur within him.

These changes may not cause an earth-shattering transformation, but Nan Zhubin has established a stable connection with the visitor over a long time. In some aspects, Nan Zhubin dare say he understands Jie Nianzhou better than Jie Nianzhou understands himself.

Therefore, Nan Zhubin can assert that this change is crucial—not big, but very key.

Nan Zhubin knowingly asked, "Do you feel the way you’re thinking now is very different from before?"

Some realizations may come naturally, but the consultant still needs the visitor to articulate them clearly.

This is a reverse process of self-analysis. In this process, visitors can better consolidate their current progress.

"Yes, the difference is huge." Jie Nianzhou’s lips slightly curled.

"This time, I first felt I made a decision, different from before when it was passive. In the end, I could only reflect afterward." Jie Nianzhou said.

Then he paused, organizing his words. But the curve of his lips did not lessen due to this pause; instead, it grew more exuberant.

"I... still thought a lot this time, considered a lot, similar to before."

"But when I used to think, I always worried about negative consequences, thinking whether I would do wrong. But this time it’s different—"

Jie Nianzhou looked up: "This time, my repeated thinking is about ’whether I truly want to do this’!"

Nan Zhubin nodded slightly: "It indeed sounds like a big change. Regardless of the result, I can sense that the emotions you’re expressing after this change are very positive."

All progress deserves support.

Jie Nianzhou took a deep breath, nodded heavily. Then he lightly exhaled, having received Nan Zhubin’s approval.

And this recognition wasn’t from the perspective of "Nan Zhubin," but from the role of "consultant."

In the cognitive behavioral model of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, intrusive thoughts themselves are an issue, but they don’t directly cause harm. The challenge lies in the visitor’s catastrophic interpretation of intrusive thoughts.

If the thought "I’m afraid of hurting others" is just a thought, it doesn’t constitute a symptom of the disorder; but when the visitor equates the thought to "I might actually do this," and repeatedly tries to suppress this thinking, it induces anxiety; when the individual’s anxiety reaches a peak, they resort to actions to alleviate it.

But triggering such behavior is like attempting to use fever to kill germs, often without positive benefits.

Instead, it leads to an out-of-control vicious cycle of "anxiety-behavior-more anxiety-more complex behavior-even more anxiety."

What stands out in Jie Nianzhou’s current expression is an interesting word—"decision."

This implies he is experiencing a process of proactive choice—he starts to decide what to say, or not say, what to do, or not do, rather than being driven by instinctual impulses. This enhancement of behavioral control is a milestone in the treatment of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

Both sides fell silent for a few breaths over the phone. Jie Nianzhou was digesting and consolidating himself while Nan Zhubin was waiting.

"Teacher Nan, there’s one more thing..."

Jie Nianzhou suddenly spoke again.

"I booked this consultation today partly for myself, but on the other hand... I feel this matter is urgent, I want to help you."

"Teacher Bai is a good teacher, and my teacher... at least I don’t want her to harm you guys." Jie Nianzhou said so.

His tone changed slightly from before; after choosing his words, he continued: "Though my habit of daily recording has lessened now, I’ve always done the fixed-time recordings you previously asked me to."

Nan Zhubin blinked, seemingly guessing what Jie Nianzhou was about to say next.

"And after doing recordings for a long time, I found... when listening back to previous recordings, some content was already useful."

Jie Nianzhou’s breathing was heavier than before: "In my recordings, there are records of Teacher Bi’s daily conversations—related to work arrangements, task allocation, adjusting experimental results. She doesn’t avoid students in the office. A lot is said directly..."

"For instance, when deliberately making it difficult for us, saying harsh words, even changing the authorship of papers with other students—I’ve recorded all of it."

Recording in the workplace is a good habit.

But ordinary people record for future use; Jie Nianzhou initially began recording as a precaution for himself.

Unexpectedly now—could this be like planting a willow unintentionally growing into a tree?

Jie Nianzhou tentatively asked Nan Zhubin: "Those recordings... would they be useful?"

Its usefulness was not clearly articulated, but both parties understood.

Nan Zhubin did not hesitate much when faced with this question.

Nan Zhubin said: "If you’re willing to bring these out, it requires your own decision—not because anyone demands you to do this, but because you believe it’s right."

"Would you like to bring them out? And after bringing them out, what effect do you expect to achieve?"

Jie Nianzhou could feel that when Nan Zhubin said these words, he was a complete consultant.