Chapter 147: Sleepy hallucination

Noah’s POV

’Alpha hasn’t been here since...’ my omega whine and I turn around to know how much time has passed since he left us.

My eyes find the clock on the wall, and I let out a defeated sigh. I can’t read an analog clock. I guess I’ll just wait here till he’s back.

I touch my neck to feel the bite mark. I didn’t know I was already feeling Elias through our bond until I suddenly stopped feeling him. The moment kind of felt like when they say you don’t know what you have till it’s gone.

I didn’t know the empty hole I felt in my chest wasn’t mine till it disappeared. I guess that’s how bonding works. I feel him and he feels me, but he has suddenly shut the bond from his end, and I can’t sense anything from him.

My legs are aching from walking up and down the hallways like a restless ghost. I know the maids laughed at me behind my back. Yeah, well they can laugh all they want, they don’t have a man like Elias to take care of them.

"Eli...where are you?" I ask the air and fold myself into a fetal position.

A single trail of tears slides down the side of my face and I sniffle. I want that jerk to come back. I want him and his emptiness to come back to me.

The door of the room swings open, and I sit up to see him come in.

The alpha I’ve been looking for all evening pauses at the door and looks at me with a flat expression. He’s still wearing the clothes from this morning while I’ve already washed up and changed before now.

Elias doesn’t move for a few seconds, and another tear drops down my cheek.

"Where were you?" I ask.

"I’m jealous" he says bluntly and I wipe the tears off my face with the back of my hand.

"I really don’t care about Roman in that way" I tell him tiredly and he shuts the door behind himself. He’s here and like always, the temperature in the room changes. It feels like being visited by death, but instead of feeling fear, I’m longing for him.

He leans against the door, and I fold my legs under my body.

"I don’t give a fuck what you feel about him, Noah. I don’t care what you think of anyone else in the world" he says coldly.

"Then why are you so mad? Why are you even claiming to be jealous if you don’t care?" I scoff, and suddenly the alpha who was at the door is now pinning me to the bed with his body.

"I’m mad because you’re mine, Noah. Mine" he roars in my face, and I freeze under him. He looks like he’s about to go feral. The way he snarls and the way his eyes flash red are terrifying.

"You’re scaring me" I whisper as I turn my head to the side.

My legs are at an awkward angle, I’m on my back, and my heart is racing. Elias doesn’t get off me immediately, instead he drops his head to mine.

"I want you with me every single second that passes. I want to know how much air you breathe. I want...I don’t want to lose you" he says and I shut my eyes.

"You’re not losing me" I say softly and he sighs against my neck. "He’s better than me" my alpha says weakly and I stiffen.

No.

This can’t be real.

Elias is the strongest, most brilliant, and most confident man I have ever seen in my life.

"He knew you as a child, Angel. He isn’t fucked in the head like me. He isn’t drawn to death, and he isn’t breaking you just to own you" he says and I guide his lips to mine with a hand on his nape.

I need to shut him up immediately.

Elias freezes at the unexpected act but softens as we both give in to the kiss. Our lips move in a slow, synced dance, and he lets out a shaky breath before deepening the kiss.

The kiss stays soft, but somehow, it feels more intimate than every other kiss we’ve ever shared.

My tongue slides into his mouth and he sucks it between his lips. He moans softly and presses my body into the sheet before breaking the kiss.

A single string of saliva keeps us connected and it breaks only when Elias puts some distance between us.

"I don’t care about him, Elias. I have your mark" I breathe out and bare my throat to show him how much power he has over me.

His eyes return to their normal brown, and he dips his head to press his nose into the mark.

"When do you leave?" he asks and I sigh, "it was set for two days from now, but Siren wants me gone by tomorrow morning" I say, waiting for him to explode again. He doesn’t.

"I only have you for tonight" he says the words like it’s just a known fact that he’s stating and I nod.

I wish he’d emotion, but I can’t force him to do or be who he’s not.

"Can I...can I mark you?" he asks and I frown, "you already marked me, Elias" I remind him of the mark I just showed him.

"No. I want to mark you in every other way. I want to my mark all over you..." he says and I lick my lips in realization.

Oh.

"Y-yes" I whimper and he pulls himself of me. His fingers trace my collar bone before he unbuttons the shirts I have on. He opens it and presses a kiss to the top of my chest.

I love when he does things like this...I like the way he analyzes my body like I’m a vital college textbook.

My lips part as he takes my sensitive skin between his teeth. He bites down and I gasp, back arching off the bed in response to the sweet pain.

He releases my skin and licks the hurting spot, running his tongue over it, and pressing a kiss to it.

"Hmm" I moan, burying my finger in his hair and gripping him tightly. The alpha proceeds to move higher, doing the same thing to my neck in two different spots. I bite down on my lower lip to keep my broken moans in.

"I won’t be here when you leave" he suddenly says and I blink twice.

"W-what?" I whisper the question in confusion, and he keeps focusing on leaving a hickey on my belly.

"I don’t want to see you leave" he says, lifting his head to look me in the eyes. "I might kill everyone involved" he says and a shiver runs through my body at the blunt confession.

He’ll kill for me.

"I’ll come back to you" I say to him and he puts the shirt back on for me. It’s disappointing that he isn’t taking this moment further, but I stay quiet and let him do what he wants.

"I’ll go wash up" he says and gets off the bed.

I hate how he finds it so easy to tell me he can’t live without me and then proceed to walk away from me. He’s so inconsiderate and so considerate at the same time that it hurts.

I return to my fetal position as I hear the shower running. The awareness that my mate is nearby softens my nerves, and I start to doze off.

I’m half-awake, half-asleep when Elias returns to the room.

The alpha slides into the bed and pulls me to his body by my midriff. He’s hugging me from behind. My heart rate slows comfortably, and I fall into a deeper sleep.

It’s the first time we’re spooning in this room and it feels so special.

I feel the ghost of his lips against my temple and I fall even deeper.

"I love you...Noah" his voice says and everything goes completely black as I let go.

It must have been a hallucination...Elias isn’t capable of love.