Chapter 271: Warm shower and his voice

Taesan’s POV

Warm water cascades down my body as I wash off the blood from today’s...work.

One hand is pressed against the wall to hold me up, while the other hand is holding my phone to my ear.

My chest is tight with so much unresolved feeling that it almost feels like a heart attack is waiting to happen.

"Come on, baby...pick the phone" I whisper.

My words bounce off the white bathroom wall, and I press my head against the cool wall just for the feeling of its coolness against my forehead.

"Come on" I whisper again, I need to hear Seoha’s voice or else I would lose my fucking mind.

"Baby, come on" I beg the wall in front of me, watching soap suds go down the drain.

My body feels too tight and tense, I feel like I would break into five different fragments if I don’t hear from him.

Shin Seoha, the omega that holds me down. He’s the same omega I once tried to ruin but now love.

"Hello?" my mate’s voice comes through the speaker, and I drop to my knees in the bathroom, completely naked as his voice undoes every anxiety.

Fuck.

I’m down bad for him and I don’t want to get up.

"Hello? Taesan? Are you there?" he asks and I open my mouth to talk, but no response comes out, just heavy breathing.

My body is still coming out of the state of no control.

I want to talk to him desperately, I want to hear his voice responding to my coherent words, but nothing is working.

"Are you hurt?" he asks, and it’s laughable, but I respond with a weak noise.

My voice sounds like a fucking wounded animal.

There’s no single wound on my body, but my mind is ruined, my mind is torn to shreds, and I have nothing to say.

My grandfather’s dead and mutilated body is still freshly tattooed into my brain.

Even worse...even fucking worse, I can smell his body, and my head is replying Shin Yechan’s accusations.

No, they’re not accusations if they’re true. They’re all true words of what I did to Shin Seoha before I fell in love with him.

"You’re scaring me" Seoha says in a shaky voice, and I immediately imagine his wide brown eyes brimming with tears.

I imagine his bottom lip trembling as he tries to hold back from crying.

"I’m sorry baby" I finally say with a rough voice, and I hear Taerin noona’s voice in the background. She scolds me before she takes the phone from Seoha.

"Yah, Taesan, do you want to make him more sick? Don’t you know that he’s barely holding up" my sister says and I wince.

I don’t want to hear her voice, It’s Seoha I want to listen to. It’s Seoha I called for.

"Give the phone back to my mate" I snarl like an animal, and my sister snarls back, matching the depth.

"Noona" I hear Seoha calling in the background.

"If you’re going to talk to him, please don’t give him a headache" my noona says and I nod as if she can see me.

I pull myself up from my knees as I wait patiently for her to give back the phone.

"Are you okay, Taesan?" Seoha asks immediately and I nod, reminding myself to speak on the phone.

I have to speak or else he’ll get worried about me again. I clear my throat twice and give it a try.

"I’m okay Seoha, I’m sorry I didn’t accept your call earlier" I say and I hear the hitch in his breathing.

He’s crying.

"Baby, don’t cry, I promise I’m okay" I say.

"I thought you got hurt and I was so scared because I don’t want to lose you" he says with that wobbly voice, and I growl softly.

"I’m never going anywhere, okay?" I say and he sniffles.

"I just wanted to hear your voice; I missed your voice" I whisper and he sniffles again.

Since my mother died, no one has cared about me like this. He feels so pure and so innocent, and so much better than what I deserve.

I don’t fucking deserve him, but I will fight for him. I’ll fight and will never relent.

"I slept for so long, and when I woke up noona gave me chicken soup" he says softly and shut off the running shower to listen to him.

"Tell me everything" I say.

"It’s really delicious, it tastes like something my grandma used to make" he says and I stop mid-action.

Grandma.

She can help me one way or the other.

"Noona and I were talking for a while, and then you called, but I’m getting better, I feel weak but I’m getting much better" Seoha continues to talk in that sweet voice and I hum softly.

"What about you? tell me about your day" he says and I laugh softly.

My day is nothing to laugh about, but it’s best if I laugh than I fall into the madness eating at my bones.

"It was...eventful"

"Taesan, tell me the truth, are you hurt?" Seoha asks and I stare at my reflection in the mirror.

My hair is wet, I’m still naked, the tattoo of Sooin’s name is still on my chest like a stamp of pride.

I’ll add Seoha’s name and our twins names too.

"I’m not hurt" I say and he sighs with relief.

"I can sleep better now" he says and I smile softly before grimacing at my face. It’s not there but I can see bloodstains on my face.

"Baby, tell me about Minnie’s baby" I say and Seoha gasps on the other end of the call.

"I haven’t seen him yet" he says and I chuckle at the tone.

"Tell me all about it when you visit, okay?" I ask and Seoha agrees with a happy tone.

We end the call and I place my phone on the nightstand before putting on new clothes.

I still have work to do.

Find that bastard. Attend meetings. Visit Seoha’s grandmother.