Chapter 610 - 609 – Mary – Part 2.

"Fuck! The hell do you mean I should rest! I'm perfectly fine!" – said Mary as she took out an energy drink from the fridge and then took out an instant cup of ramen that she started preparing.

"For fuck's sake."

"Honestly, this entire fucking trial seems like a bullshit to me!"

"A ball? A party? I've never fucking done anything like that!"

"And a fancy one at that!?"

"Who the fuck designed that kind of quest?!"

"…"

(Then again, based on what Phantasia told me, his own quest was also mentally challenging and it took him a while to complete and he also almost failed it.)

(Not only that, I've heard that Sengen, the other new recruit is also failing at her own mental type trial.)

(As for the physical trials? Yeah, no.)

(Maparapara and Thanatos.)

(I've looked them up.)

(Despise Phantasia being mentioned as the "monster" the most, these two are also proper monsters that bring terror and destruction.)

(Heck! I saw that Thanatos cutting down the monsters that could one shot me with ease and then binding them so I can have a killing blow.)

(Honestly speaking, the leveling up speed I've experience is nothing like it was before.)

(Not only that, but that guy Phantasia straight up made me a full on freaking legendary armor set and weapons! He used a fucking high-grade materials and what not to make those!)

(ME!)

(Honestly, I've heard that making even single legendary rarity piece of equipment cost way too much to make AND you need to have extremely skilled crafter to do it.)

(Only the those at the very top of the crafter ranking can make legendary equipment.)

(But even so, a cost of making these items is a lot AND they sell for fortune.)

(But that guy? He is the best craftsman in the game AND he is one of the riches bastards.)

(I was straight up spoiled rotten the moment I've joined his side!)

(…Still, Thanatos and Maparapara probably also gotten spoiled like me, and yet, according to them, they barely managed to pass their own trials.) – thought Mary as he instant ramen was ready, making the woman pick it up and go to her computer, which she turned on.

(A monsters like them could barely, do it?)

(…Yeah, I can't if they can't.)

(And there is also this guy.)

(Who the fuck is "Shadow Mastermind"??? I thought the only annoying bastard would be that so called Apple!)

(Because of them, we have to acquire the divinity as soon as possible or we won't get any.)

(…Divinity.)

(That power that was recently discovered and has ability to change the whole person.)

(Apparently some people who shown overwhelming power were indeed divinity users.)

(Thanatos also shown us how powerful she became after obtaining her divinity and Phantasia apparently also obtained a huge power up, despise his divinity not being combat oriented.)

"…"

"I want it."

"If I obtain it, then I would already become somebody."

"It doesn't matter if it is combat type or not, I will still become somebody by just having it."

"…"

(Still, the problem is limit according Phantasia.)

(There is a limited amount of Elder Gods' Divinities for the grab.)

(Meaning, if we fail to secure this one… Then there is a good chance we won't have another chance to get another one.) – thought nervous Mary.

"…"

"!"

"No! I will do it! I have to!" – said Mary to herself as she was trying to boost her confidence… While her arm still shaking a little.

"…"

"But still… A fancy freaking party?"

(I've tried looking it up and just trying to imitate it, but that was way worse than I've thought.)

(ESPECIALLY THE FUCKING MUSIC! I'VE TRIED STRAIGHT UP COPYING SOME MUSIC FROM SOME WELL-KNOWN MUSICIANS! ONLY TO THEN HAVE HARD TIME RECREATING IT!)

"…"

*Sigh*

"I've tried to be bit more original and what not, trying to use my amateur knowledge to create something 'the best' with my abilities… But that didn't worked either."

"Ugh"

(Do I really have no choice but to learn how to make the whole "party" thing from the ground up?) – thought annoyed Mary as she was eating her ramen.

"…"

"But how much time I have exactly?" – said nervous Mary to herself.

"…"

(I think I maybe fucked for real.)

(…)

(But what happens if I fail?)

(What happens if I don't prove I'm "useful"?)

(Will they get rid of me and stripe me of that legendary equipment he gave me?!)

(But I was already leveled up a bit! And that guy Phantasia and Thanatos gave me some good class books that I could only wish to obtain!)

(There is no way they will make me pay up for everything?)

"…"

(No… The bigger problem is divinity.)

(I NEED IT!)

(But without somebody "watching my back", there is no way I could finish the trial in peace….)

(And I need somebody I can "trust".)

(If Phantasia and his group won't be protecting me… Then it won't be possible for me to ever obtain divinity.)

…

Fear.

It was emotion that struck Mary.

Right now, she had a chance, a FUTURE she could make into reality.

Becoming somebody.

She has it right now it in the palm of her hand.

…However.

At any moment, that chance and the future that she want can disappear.

If she fails now, she may never obtain divinity…

No.

Not just divinity.

This maybe her very ONLY chance to become "somebody".

First was selfish greed.

Then it was innocent happiness.

And now? Fear of the future.

Pretty much entire story her entire story to this point can be said to have done one thing to her mind.

Wound her.

It was just as Phantasia suspected, she wasn't doing well mentality right now.

Train of thoughts, worries, fears, it was all mixing inside of her head.

Right now, what she needed to do wasn't to prepare for the trial, but just focus on calming down.

Just going back to being a NEET.

…

But could she do that.

Her fear, joy and greed turned into obsession.

She wanted to be PoPulAr.

Her desire was getting twisted.

The desire to be somebody.

The desire to ShInE.

Honestly speaking, something like that would be nothing more than poison to somebody.

It wouldn't make person pursue the goal, but just straight up just chasing their target while wearing a blindfold.

Her obsession was poisoning her.

…

…

…

That would be the case for straight up anybody.

But, for her?

It was just the "drug" that she needed.

Mary was ordinally and nobody.

She was never anything special nor she made real achievement in her life.

She was just like the rest of the "people" out there.

She is just like many other people like her, who reached their hands up towards the sky… But there was a limit on how far she could reach… Just like the rest of "People".

She wasn't like Sengen who was talented player in combat.

She wasn't like Thanatos or Maparapara when it comes to being "gifted".

Nor she was nothing like Phantasia who was a "monster".

Compare to all of them she was just "nobody".

…

However, she had something the other didn't had.

A mad and twisted obsession.

That obsession would poison all of them and be just it.

A poison.

But for Mary?

It was the exact wonder drug that she needed the most right now.

[Sometime later: In game – Ice Mountain]

"…"

"The fuck is going on?" – said confused yet on guard Phantasia as he stood on top of the mountain.

(There is nothing going on for the days now?)

(By now I thought we would end up getting attacked or something.)

(But so far? Quiet?)

(I was even able to take a solid break.)

"…"

(Honestly speaking, I don't want to sent anybody down to do an investigation.)

(Hell, there is probably down here AND they know how dangerous this place is, meaning they maybe strong enough to take on one of the Brynhild Valkyries.)

*Sigh*

(Yeb. This is annoying.)

(Still, I'm confused about something.)

(I thought by now there would be existence of the "elder gods' divinity" on the internet… But from what I'm getting so far, it seems there is nothing.)

(Instead the "conflict over mysterious dungeons" is the main topic here.)

(This is truly getting… Messy to say the least.)

"…"

(Then again, when Thanatos entered her temple, she wasn't greeted by the priest in charge of the temple and she only met them at the end.)

(We did cheated with using our own affinity to make the priest come out of hiding… So maybe even if some people DID entered the dungeon, they didn't found out that they are inside of a temple?)

"Hm… Still, it is matter of time before it breaks and all hell will go loose."

"There is also other major factions."

(So far, the organization network didn't said anything about "increased aggressivity"… Maybe the temple defenses against the other world invaders are truly strong?)

"…"

"Yeah… No fucking way."

"The bullshit situation will finds it way no matter what."

"It ain't freaking matter of raising a flag or jinxing shit."

"Since I fucking know it will happened to matter what."