Chapter 1112: No Regrets in This Life, No Remorse in This Love (4)

Chapter 1112: Chapter 1112: No Regrets in This Life, No Remorse in This Love (4)

Ning Xu smiled while looking at him, but Shu Jingmo’s heart was exceptionally restless. Xiao Xu had not come to find him for so many years, and today suddenly appeared before him. He didn’t know why, but he had a bad feeling, and that feeling grew stronger when he saw Xiao Xu’s smile.

He felt he could no longer control himself. He had to figure it out, or else he would never be at ease.

"Xiao..." Shui Jingmo opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted by Ning Xu.

"A Jing," Ning Xu looked at Shu Jingmo, as if he’d suddenly made a decision, and smiled as he said, "I’m here to say goodbye to you."

He spoke casually and his smile appeared natural.

But in Shu Jingmo’s eyes, there was an irrepressible impulse, making him suddenly feel troubled and confused.

"These years, I’ve visited many places and haven’t returned to Ningxi Island," Ning Xu said to Shu Jingmo. "I’m planning to go back to Ningxi Island, and... maybe I won’t leave again."

After saying these words, Ning Xu felt as if he had suddenly become relieved; his whole being became radiant and light.

When Han Jing finally asked him if he was willing, he knew in fact, he was not willing, because of unwillingness, he had quietly watched over A Jing all these years, and he would rather deceive himself by dreaming. He simply wasn’t willing, not willing to let go just like that; not willing to let go of the person he loved to his core.

To say goodbye just like that?

So what did their feelings count for?

He had asked himself this question countless times on countless messy drunk nights, what did their feelings count for? How could he say he didn’t love him anymore, just let go like that?

What was he insisting on alone?

Those countless times of waiting, that spiritual torment slowly turned into an obsession, eating him away until he was shattered and wounded.

He couldn’t even feel alive anymore, suffocated to the point that he wished to trade lifetimes for this lifetime, no, even if it were a bit shorter, just to love and stay together. Forget about living a long life, just like ordinary people, it would be fine to live for a few decades or even less.

Could they just be together, not separate anymore?

That kind of pain drove him to mental collapse, so he finally couldn’t endure it and went astray. He was willing to exhaust all his life and energy to exchange for an illusory dream, just for a bit more tenderness of holding hands this lifetime.

Love ground his heart into pieces, and with these pieces, he tried to piece together a false love dream.

It was his very own love dream.

But now, the dream is over, everything should end, and he should leave.

This love, this affection, this life, this lifetime.

He Ning Xu and Shui Jingmo loved each other, that’s enough, it’s worth it.

He suddenly didn’t want any answers or understand any reasons or outcomes. The outcome was already predetermined, and there was no need to seek answers.

In the moment he just embraced him, he suddenly let go; perhaps it’s simply this good.

There, their story has come to an end, and in fact, it’s quite good.

Having loved him is the best thing in this world.

"In this life, no regrets for love, no regrets for this affection."