Chapter 1110: No Regrets in This Life, No Remorse in This Love (2)

Chapter 1110: Chapter 1110: No Regrets in This Life, No Remorse in This Love (2)

To love someone is a very happy thing.

But from the day they parted, Han Jing hasn’t had a moment that wasn’t painful. He knows that as long as he’s alive, no matter in what form, whether he’s still flesh and blood, or transforms into a fierce ghost, or reincarnates as a human, as long as he still exists in this world, he can’t forget, can’t let go.

So he doesn’t have a choice, nor does he want to choose anymore.

He doesn’t know what it would be like for life to start over, whether it would be like how Han Jing said, waiting for a new beginning. He has neither the time nor the energy to think about these things anymore.

He’s tired, very tired, wants to end it all.

Shui Jingmo quietly watched Ning Xu. He wanted so much to open his mouth and say, of course not ugly, Xiao Xu is the most beautiful in this world, how could anyone say ugly?

But those words seemed stuck in his throat; he couldn’t utter a single word.

He just quietly gazed at him, thousands of words, in the end, until now, he can’t say anything, doesn’t need to say anything anymore.

In the end, the only words he could say were, "What’s wrong? Looking for me... is there something you need?"

Those short two sentences, spoken as if slicing his own heart, knife by knife, each cut painful, just like back then, when Xiao Xu came looking for him, he cruelly told him, let’s pretend none of the past ever happened. He knew he had exhausted all his qualifications to love him.

He no longer had the right to love him. From that moment on, he knew for the rest of his life, he would never be able to hold the person he loves so deeply again.

No matter what unavoidable reasons he had, no matter how much he wanted to forget all those past years, how could he possibly forget after so many years?

There are just too many things in life that can’t be resisted. If you choose one, you must lose another.

There aren’t that many perfectly happy solutions waiting for you.

Shui Jingmo is seen by others as a graceful and gentle gentleman, but only he and his Xiao Xu know he’s not that kind of person. He’s actually someone who loves to laugh, with a bit of assertiveness and dominance, who used to confidently demand Xiao Xu do many things for him, enjoying every moment.

He never liked to trouble others; the one he troubled most in his life was his Xiao Xu.

But he ultimately couldn’t choose his Xiao Xu, couldn’t give him a promise. He thought they didn’t need that. He thought time would prove his feelings, he believed they would have eternity to feel the true warmth of this love.

He never imagined that the person who ultimately hurt Xiao Xu the most was him.

Just like these ten years, he hasn’t stopped thinking about him for a single day, yet he never had the courage to see him. He’s afraid he might lose control, wanting to abandon everything, abandoning all that could or could not be, just to hold his hand and wander the world.

All of this seems like a joke.

Just as in his heart, no matter how much it aches at this moment, no matter how many turbulent thoughts he has, upon finally seeing him, facing him at this moment, standing in front of his Xiao Xu, he can only cruelly and coldly ask, what’s wrong, is there something you need?

What a normal greeting, so normal that,

It pierces deep into the bone.