Chapter 718: Compared to You and the Child, I Love Myself More

Chapter 718: Chapter 718: Compared to You and the Child, I Love Myself More

Ye Jinyan said, "I have indeed been afflicted by the Heart Devouring Gu, which is what you refer to as the Black Gu.

The Black Gu is a general term, but the Heart Devouring Gu is a specific Child Gu, because when the Child Gu acts, it feels like thousands of Gu worms are gnawing at your heart.

And I... four years ago, I was inflicted with the Heart Devouring Gu."

"Was it my father who gave you the Heart Devouring Gu?"

Ye Jinyan shook his head, and Bai Haoxue was even more puzzled.

Ye Jinyan said, "I shook my head because I don’t know either... but what I do know about being afflicted by the Heart Devouring Gu, and all the knowledge about it, was told to me by your father.

When your father first told me, I didn’t believe it.

Until that full moon night of that month, my heart started with a slow throb of pain, then a gradual clenching pain, and finally it felt like countless bugs were gnawing at it.

The pain was so intense, it forced me to trust your father.

And trusting your father meant I had to do things for him.

Because he would provide me with relief medicine, as long as I listened to him and helped him with things, I wouldn’t suffer horribly on the full moon night each month, wishing for death.

Moreover, every time I saw you with Ji Hanyu, my heart would ache, and I wished I could kill Ji Hanyu and take you away.

So, to get you to leave Ji Hanyu, I devised many plans against you.

I went to Snowfield Manor to incite you, constantly telling you that Ji Hanyu had ulterior motives and was not sincere about you.

I even used Bai Youran to sow discord between you and Ji Hanyu because, at the time, Bai Youran was closest to you.

At that time, many conflicts and misunderstandings between you and Ji Hanyu were either deliberately or inadvertently caused by me.

Because I know you, I know what to say, what to do to make you dislike Ji Hanyu to the greatest extent, even hate him.

I bear a large part of the responsibility for your separation from Ji Hanyu.

But after you left Snowfield Manor pregnant, Ji Hanyu seemed to disappear from your life, which convinced me even more that he was only playing with you...

So, I kept persuading you to abort your child, and..."

Ye Jinyan paused and said, "Moreover, I noticed that your father paid very special attention and concern to the child inside you.

At that time, I had already decided your father was a bad person. For someone like him... why would he care so much about your child unless he had some ulterior motives?

I was already under your father’s control; I didn’t want you or your child to be controlled by him.

So whenever there was a chance, I would urge you to abort your child.

I even secretly bought abortion pills to mix into your food, but when I saw you tenderly caressing your belly and talking to your child with such maternal love every day, I suddenly couldn’t bring myself to do it.

Moreover, my actions were discovered by your father, and he punished me by withholding the relief medicine for three months.

If you have a good memory, you should remember that since then, I never advised you to abort your child.

Because compared to you and your child, I still loved myself more, and once again, I yielded and surrendered to your father.

That kind of pain, experiencing it once, is a shadow that lasts a lifetime.

Every full moon night is the day of his greatest fear.

Ye Jinyan said, "Your father has a particular focus and concern for your child, I’m sure you’ve noticed it too!"