Chapter 208: We Finally Arrived at the Checkpoint

[A/N: See guys we are sad that Stevie died but on the bright side, now I don’t have to care about her pronouns anymore☺️]

Horses arrived to carry Lily and me, and at last we headed for the checkpoint.

I had completely lost control after losing Stevie, yet nearly twenty people had died back there. I had already grown used to watching other people die. And while I was at the margrave’s mansion I had been worrying about Mother and Cass in the capital, but I now understood that had been a great mistake. I was the smaller, far more precarious one. Even though I had convinced myself I was stronger and tried to protect others, I could not even protect Stevie alone...

"Robby-sama, please do not dwell on it too deeply."

Lily spoke to me. That was right — Lily was feeling the same things. In fact Lily’s relationship with Stevie must have been longer. Thinking of that, my time with Stevie was still short. Next time, if Lily looked lonely, I would be the one to comfort her.

The checkpoint consisted of the soldiers’ quarters and a hut so shabby it could hardly be called a reception hall for the occasional nobles who passed through. It was arranged so that a noble’s party could stay, and it could easily accommodate fifty people. Nobles apparently brought their own ingredients and did their own cooking. The system was that the checkpoint only provided a place to sleep. The carriage that was originally supposed to carry me was already waiting inside the checkpoint and had been settled into this lodging that went by the name of reception hall. With the arrival of Lily and me, their duties had finally begun to see an end. I had heard that once we entered the Mainz Kingdom tomorrow, the people of the Mainz Kingdom would take charge of us.

Tonight was Stevie’s wake. I did not want to be disturbed by anyone else. I strictly ordered that no one was to enter my room.

At dinner Lily said,

"Robby-sama, for the next ten days, at every meal please pray for Stevie. Stevie’s life is still wandering. She does not know where to go and is drifting. Therefore, with Robby-sama’s prayers, would you guide Stevie’s soul to God’s side?"

"Is that so? Is Stevie’s soul still around here somewhere?"

"I believe it is."

"Then let’s do that. But what should I recite, how should I pray? Lily, will you teach me?"

"Understood. ’Beside me wanders the soul of Stevie Nix. Please guide the soul of Stevie Nix to the side of God Sophia. I pray that with Your light You will scoop up the wandering soul of Stevie Nix into Your hands.’ Is that all right? There is no need to raise your voice loudly. It is enough if you murmur it in your heart, but in order to convey prayer and gratitude to God, you must lower your head a little. Is that acceptable?"

"I understand. It’s fine. If Stevie’s soul can reach God’s side with only that much, I’ll keep doing it from now on."

"Thank you very much. Please take care of it."

We offered the prayer and ate.

After dinner Lily and I purified our bodies and changed clothes. Then I called Lily to my room. Of course it was not for anything erotic.

I took Stevie out and laid her on my bed. She looked as if she were still alive. Her blue hair was beautiful. Lily applied makeup to Stevie. She truly looked as if she were only sleeping.

In front of Stevie, Lily took out a Bible and recited scripture. Lily’s prayer sounded as if she were singing a song. It was the first time I had heard Lily’s singing, and I felt she was guiding Stevie’s soul to heaven (or what they call the purified kingdom of God). Lily recited the scripture and prayed while letting one, then two tears run down her cheek.

I was moved by the sight of Lily. Before I knew it I too was shedding tears.

"Please put Stevie away. I request it."

Lily’s voice brought me back to myself.

"Robby-sama, let us have Stevie buried in a corner of the outskirts of the checkpoint. It would be too pitiful to bury Stevie in foreign soil."

Burying her in the Mainz Kingdom would be too sad. Even though it is the edge of the Marie Kingdom, let us bury her in her homeland.

"You’re right. We’ll have her buried tomorrow morning."

I put Stevie’s body back into the mana bag.

Now that we were alone we faced each other.

"Robby-sama, tomorrow we will enter the Mainz Kingdom, but please continue to look after me from now on. I am sure there will be many points in which I am lacking, but I will do my very best."

Lily’s formal tone felt strange and odd.

"Eh, is something strange?"

To Lily’s suspicious face I said,

"No, I just thought it was like a married couple greeting their first night."

When I said that,

"My! To be told such a thing by still-childish Robby-sama is most unexpected!"

Lily puffed out her cheeks. Both Lily and I had lightened our hearts a little by seeing Stevie off. I had heard that when a close person dies, holding ceremonies such as a funeral lightens the heart. I had heard that by holding a funeral one draws a line in the heart and the feeling of "let’s do our best again" appears, and I thought that was what this was now.

"Lily, let’s stop speaking of Stevie and crying. Until our hearts become a little lighter, let’s not put it into words."

At my proposal Lily looked down, took a little time, and then said,

"Understood. We cannot keep crying forever, can we. I will no longer speak of Stevie."

I had not said "do not speak of her"; I had said "stop speaking of her and crying," but it had been conveyed a little wrongly.

When I took Lily’s hand and held it, a tear pocho fell from Lily.

"See, again."

"I am sorry."

Saying that, Lily wiped the tear with her finger. I held that Lily’s head and embraced her. Because Lily cried while suppressing her voice, I looked at her face and scolded,

"Didn’t I just say not to cry anymore?"

"I am sorry."

she said, and laughed while crying.

I drew Lily’s face close and kissed her. Lily, as if she had been waiting, held my head and pushed her tongue in. A switch inside me flipped on. Even though today was the day Stevie died, I thought, yet Lily’s warmth was terribly longed-for. While kissing I embraced Lily.

Was Stevie watching from somewhere in this room?

When I separated my mouth Lily said,

"Stevie’s soul is watching."

yet there was no sign that she would loosen the strength with which she held me. Only our upper bodies were pressed together, but my son had become fiercely hard. Hard enough to hurt. Whether it was because of abstinence or because I had cut people down, I did not know. Was I trying to fill the emptiness of losing Stevie with Lily?

No, no, I thought, yet it was painful. Lily’s scent filled my nose to the brim.

"Robby-sama, you mustn’t..."

Perhaps my feelings had been conveyed; Lily began to refuse. That only poured more oil on the fire of my desire and made it blaze higher.

Still embracing Lily I pushed her down onto the floor.

Lily kept holding my head and said,

"Robby-sama... you mustn’t... Stevie is..."

yet she did not release me. I pressed my hardened son against Lily’s abdomen and moved it.

"Ahh, you mustn’t. Robby-sama, you mustn’t..."

While saying that she put her arms around my back. Was Lily also confirming life by being held by me? Perhaps the one who had died there could have been Lily instead of Stevie.

I want her to grip my hardened son! I want her to soothe this thing! I want her to grip it and stroke it! I want it so much I cannot stand it!!

I loosened the belt of my trousers and, impatient even with loosening the string of my underpants, exposed my son. While still kissing Lily I took her hand and guided it to my son. For an instant Lily’s hand seemed to flinch, but immediately she began to grip and stroke. Strongly, fiercely, roughly she stroked! At this rate I would come immediately!? No, no! I want to finish inside Lily! Please, let me finish in Lily!

I rolled up Lily’s skirt and exposed her underpants. Lily’s hand did not stop mine. I loosened the string of Lily’s underpants. There was no leisure to pull the underpants down. There was not even time to check whether Lily was wet. Removing Lily’s hand from my son I pressed it against Lily’s crotch, and Lily spread her legs. Then she adjusted the position so that the head would enter easily.

"I’m going in."

Even though there was no need to say it, I said it. I put force into my hips with a gui and advanced into Lily. There was the sensation of the head being wrapped, and just like that I pushed deeper with gui gui. Unexpectedly, Lily’s inside was already sufficiently wet.

"Ahh!?"

Lily’s voice rose. Nails were driven into my back.

"Lily!"

Calling her name I pushed the head in. The moment it entered as far as it would go, I reached climax. Bikun!! Bikun! Bikun! my entire body convulsed and I poured into Lily. I was connected to Lily. My manhood was wrapped by Lily, and I felt Lily’s warmth.

"Robby-sama..."

Lily stroked my hair.

"I’m sorry... even though Stevie is watching... I... held Lily..."

At my words Lily smiled a little and said,

"It is all right. Stevie would forgive it too. Robby-sama, having lost Stevie, you are suffering, are you not? You wanted human warmth, did you not? You wanted to feel warmth, did you not? I am the same. Because I am lonely, because I am sad, I wanted to be held by Robby-sama. Right now Stevie has entered inside me. Stevie is also being held by Robby-sama and is happy."

she spoke. I think the part about Stevie having entered is a lie, yet it is sufficiently conveyed that she is trying to comfort me.

"I..."

"Ufufu, you said ’ore’ again just now, Robby-sama."

"Eh!?"

"When Robby-sama’s emotions are laid bare you say ’ore,’ don’t you."

"Ahh..."

"It is all right. In front of me please remain the natural Robby-sama. You are always so tightly strung, so please loosen only in front of me."

"Ahh, please."

I buried my face in Lily’s chest from above her clothes. The son still inside Lily felt good from the contractions of Lily’s vagina.