I Became the Little Demon in Leading Role's Family

Chapter 794: Chapter 724: Why Is It You?

Bai Fei once really wanted to protect Bai Zhi, because at that time, Bai Zhi finally thought of resisting, which made her feel like helping out this cousin who was inferior to her in every way.

Indeed, even though she never spoke of it, this was the real reason: she felt Bai Zhi was inferior to her in every aspect.

Bai Zhi didn’t have a father who doted on her, nor did she have a mother who would always cook for her and love her forever.

Nor did she have a brother who was a top student.

All Bai Zhi had were parents who kept her constantly busy with chores and the bullying of Bai Yu and Bai Ye.

So, she felt sympathy for her, and one could say that Bai Fei held a bit of self-satisfaction in their positions. She thought her cousin Bai Zhi was really cute. She wanted to help her…

But later Bai Zhi became better and better, increasingly outstanding.

Bai Fei didn’t actually have any problems, she just noticed that Bai Zhi was getting better, and felt happy for her.

Sometimes we don’t want others to outdo us; this kind of mentality is quite normal, but when it is magnified without limit, it can cause you to lose yourself.

Eventually, you forget what you were originally like.

Later on, Bai Fei saw Bai Zhi becoming more and more beautiful; the dark and small Bai Zhi she hadn’t seen for years had transformed so astonishingly.

Yet she had become especially ugly because of her mother’s weight loss product; she loathed her repulsive self, finding herself unable to stop the cycle.

Eating nonstop, vomiting nonstop, and filled with constant regret.

She didn’t know how to change until Bai Zhi took her to the hospital and made her look a little better so she could meet Senior Brother.

She was truly fine before, but Senior Brother’s eyes were now on Bai Zhi.

At that moment, all her selfishness, all her jealousy burst forth uncontrollably.

Why, why did that girl who was once inferior to her attract Senior Brother’s attention? Senior Brother was supposed to be hers.

She started to hurt Bai Zhi, and also hurt herself as if that would somehow mend her heart that had long been battered and bruised.

It was nothing but self-deception.

Time passed, and Senior Brother had made things clear to her, but she couldn’t help herself, and continued to blame Bai Zhi.

In the end, it was all because of jealousy.

“Just a few months ago, I was actually jealous of you. Jealous that you could have so many things, why? Why you?

When I saw you were about to drive Auntie away, the only thought in my mind was that your true colors were finally showing, that you weren’t so perfect after all. That you are capable of making mistakes, that you’re not perfect at all.

I desperately wanted to magnify your faults, to keep magnifying them, only then could I show everyone your true face.

I began to accuse you, started to point out your faults, I became one of the people who once hurt you, yet I was smug about it.”

Bai Zhi watched Bai Fei behaving this way and didn’t speak, simply taking a quiet sip of her soda.

It bubbled with traces of carbonation in her mouth. In fact, she hadn’t intended to have a serious conversation with Bai Fei.

It was a kind of giving up on her part, thinking that since Bai Fei had already acted that way, why not just give up on that cousin?

So, it wasn’t just Bai Fei who was to blame; Bai Zhi had her faults too.

“I wanted everyone to know about your bad side. At that moment I was jealous, I was frenzied with jealousy, but when I was locked up by brother, when he said he was inferior to you, I was still jealous of you. I felt that you didn’t deserve to have so much.”

Waiting was torturous. I heard many people rushing into the yard, wreaking havoc everywhere in the room and the yard; that night was like a nightmare.

I don’t know how long it had been, but when everything went silent, I crawled out. My brother was injured, and I was scared. Immediately, I wanted to apply medicine to his wounds, but he said you were the one seriously hurt…

He said you were the one who had always been protecting us. I was unaware of so much before, but now I understand. I think if I were you, I couldn’t have done it, I couldn’t sacrifice myself for others, and I couldn’t be willing to give so much. At this moment, I finally understand what the real difference between us is.

Xingxing, I have been living for myself. I thought that was enough; shouldn’t everyone live for themselves?

But you, you lived for everyone else. You truly deserve to be called the Guardian of the Bai Family. I admire you but never wish to become you.”

After Bai Fei finished speaking, it was as if she had finally set down a great weight she had been carrying in her heart.

And now, she could also stop thinking about everything and start over with her own life.

It wasn’t that she couldn’t let go of that senior; she just couldn’t let go of her own jealousy. She couldn’t accept that Bai Zhi was more dazzling than she was.

Now, she finally understood the weight of that dazzle. If it were her, she couldn’t do it.

If one is doomed never to surpass, but only to look up, then she was willing to let go.

“Xingxing, I’m sorry.” Finally, she could summon the courage to face her own heart. Looking at everything…

“Oh.”

Bai Zhi too finished her last sip of water, “Actually, when you said you were jealous of me, I didn’t even consider you a threat, so we’re even. Nobody should speak ill of the other.”

Bai Fei: “…” Why did that statement feel so piercing?

“Not just that, you never considered me a threat at all, so am I the only one who was heartbroken? Xingxing, you’re too much.”

“It’s fine.”

…

It was the first time Bai Guang had seen Li Sisi since the divorce. In fact, he had known roughly where Li Sisi was, but he hadn’t let himself think about it or go see her, fearing that once he did, he would lose control of himself again.

How could years of feelings be let go in just one or two days? Especially since he had never planned to give them up.

To him, this woman was the catastrophe of his life.

Xingxing said you could give up everything of the Bai Family to pursue your own life.

He knew Xingxing meant it, but how could he be so selfish? Since childhood, he had understood one thing: without the Bai Family, there was no him.

The Bai Family could survive without him, but he couldn’t leave the Bai Family. He was lucky enough to be with the person he loved and to have children; how could he truly be that selfish?

So he refused without hesitation. Life is not just about love, but also about responsibility. His parents were here, his children were here, his family was here; this was the place he needed to protect.

Besides, he had always been proud of being the Guardian.

“It’s been a long time.”

Bai Guang’s lips trembled, and he didn’t speak. Instead, Li Sisi was the one who boldly broke the silence.

“It’s been a long time,” Bai Guang managed to say after a long while.

“Bai Guang, I thought you would ask me why, why I did such a thing.”

Li Sisi was somewhat surprised he hadn’t questioned her, and she found it quite unusual.

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