Chapter 213: Who Doesn’t Want to Be a Good Person?

Her body was soft and fragrant. He really wanted to keep holding her just like this.

But he didn’t even dare to hold Su Zhaozhao too tightly.

He was so tense, he couldn’t help but tremble.

Terrified of making her despise him.

’I really wish time would stop at this moment, that it could go on like this forever...’

’I could hold Su Zhaozhao for a lifetime.’

But reality wouldn’t allow it.

Su Zhaozhao gently pushed him. Xu Jiaming’s temples throbbed. He fought back the agonizing anxiety of their parting and could only let her leave his embrace.

No matter how reluctant he was, it seemed the time for them to part had inevitably arrived.

Xu Jiaming’s gaze fell upon Su Zhaozhao, desperately searching for any hint of affection from her.

But there was nothing.

Her gaze was calm. Her expression even held a hint of relief.

’It’s as if she was worried I would do something to her.’

But she was completely different when she was with Xie Huaizheng.

She could hug Xie Huaizheng so naturally, act cute with him. All their physical affection was effortless.

’Am I that repulsive to her?’

’Even if I’m not as handsome as Xie Huaizheng, I’m still considered good-looking.’

’Alright... maybe I really can’t compare to Xie Huaizheng.’

At this thought, Xu Jiaming suddenly felt a pang of misery in his heart.

He was suddenly overcome with insecurity. He, who had always been confident, who took everything he wanted into his grasp.

He always went after what he wanted and had never felt so insecure before.

But now, he suddenly didn’t dare to look at Su Zhaozhao. Her gaze would only deepen his feelings of inferiority.

He turned and walked toward the train car.

Xu Jiaxin also shared a brief hug with Xu Ziyang.

When she first saw Xu Jiaming hugging Su Zhaozhao, she was truly shocked. But on second thought, she figured her brother must have tricked her again.

She knew full well what a liar Xu Jiaming could be.

’Our Zhaozhao is so kind and sweet, she must have been deceived by him.’

Su Zhaozhao, however, never read too much into things.

But she hadn’t expected that after letting go, Xu Jiaming would walk into the train car without a single look back.

Xu Jiaxin could only say to Su Zhaozhao and Xu Ziyang, "I’m off. You two take care. If you come to Shencheng City to visit, let me know. I’ll be sure to give you the best hospitality."

"Okay, travel safely!" Su Zhaozhao said to Xu Jiaxin.

The train slowly started to move. Once the cars were completely out of sight, Su Zhaozhao turned her head and saw a mix of happiness and disappointment on Xu Ziyang’s face.

"Looks like I won’t be seeing Jiaxin for a while."

"You really like her, don’t you?" Su Zhaozhao raised an eyebrow at him. "You have so much time during summer break right now. I think you could totally go visit her."

’If they spend more time together, they could get together.’

"It’s not that much time at all!" Xu Ziyang said.

’Of course I want to go, but... absence makes the heart grow fonder. Maybe we should start with writing letters?’

’We’ll take it slow. There’s no rush if we want it to last.’

「Meanwhile, on the old-fashioned train.」

Xu Jiaxin looked at Xu Jiaming, who was sitting across from her.

They had once again bought tickets for the most expensive soft sleeper car. It was mostly empty, the environment was pleasant, and they could sit face-to-face without being disturbed.

Xu Jiaxin studied Xu Jiaming for a moment before saying, "Brother, why do you look so unhappy?"

"Should I be happy?" Xu Jiaming said, lifting his eyes to look at Xu Jiaxin.

"You got to hug Zhaozhao. So, how was it? Does she smell really nice? Is she super soft? It must have been amazing, right?"

"Shut up." Xu Jiaming stared coldly at Xu Jiaxin.

Snapped at by Xu Jiaming, Xu Jiaxin didn’t dare to speak anymore.

’Alright, Xu Jiaming is clearly in a foul mood right now. I’d better not push my luck.’

She shrank into her corner, opened her notebook, and couldn’t help but smile as she looked at the words Xu Ziyang had written inside.

’Xu Ziyang is really interesting. He’s so warm and cheerful, but there’s a little shyness in his eyes when he looks at me.’

’It feels like I’m about to fall in love.’

Xu Jiaming noticed Xu Jiaxin’s lovestruck expression, and his brow furrowed.

It only made him feel more miserable.

The reason he had gotten angry just now was because Xu Jiaxin’s words had made him involuntarily recall his hug with Su Zhaozhao.

He was already reluctant to part with Su Zhaozhao, and now, he missed her even more.

’So irritable, a surge of hostility... I feel like killing someone!’

’Damn it, I really can’t take this! Why doesn’t Su Zhaozhao like me? Why doesn’t she belong to me?’

’If only Su Zhaozhao were completely mine...’

’Or if only I had met Su Zhaozhao before Xie Huaizheng did.’

Unfortunately, fate had not given him that choice.

The one who got there first was, and always would be, Xie Huaizheng.

’So, should I just give up?’

Xu Jiaming looked at the receding scenery outside the window. ’Jiang City is so beautiful. There are almost no mountains; as far as the eye can see, there are just green fields, unbelievably pretty.’

’This is the place that nurtured a beauty like Su Zhaozhao. It’s true what they say about the land shaping its people.’

Then, Xu Jiaming raised his hands and covered his eyes.

’I still can’t let go.’

’In that case, I’ll just let nature take its course. Su Zhaozhao won’t let me get close to her, but she can’t stop me from missing her, can she?’

’My own thoughts are my own business. They have nothing to do with Su Zhaozhao.’

Thinking this, Xu Jiaming felt a little better.

It had been a long, long time since he’d tried to be such a purely good person.

But for Su Zhaozhao, he was willing to try.

’At least, she probably wouldn’t hate a good person.’

Su Zhaozhao and Xu Ziyang headed back from the train station. She felt calm, even a little happy.

’I don’t have to deal with Xu Jiaming anymore. Even though he seemed to be acting normal these past few days, I still want to maintain my distance from him.’

’After all, I’m already married, and I know he likes me. I have no intention of leading him on.’

Xu Ziyang, who had been a little happy at first, grew sadder and sadder the further they got.

He couldn’t help but ask Su Zhaozhao, "Zhaozhao, do you think I have a shot with your friend?"

"You two were just hugging, and you’re still asking me that kind of question?" She was utterly astonished by Xu Ziyang’s reaction.

’Is Xu Ziyang blind?’

’Did he really not notice how shy Xu Jiaxin looked then?’

"I don’t know... I feel like maybe I do, but... I’m not confident?" Xu Ziyang swallowed nervously. "I’ve never been in a relationship before. That girl is so pretty and her family is rich. There must be a lot of outstanding guys pursuing her..."

"Don’t worry, she’s a little interested in you too, Brother. You should seize the opportunity. Jiaxin is a really, really good girl."

’I guess I did my part to help Xu Jiaxin escape her fate as the villainess from the novel,’ Su Zhaozhao thought.

’Is this that mutual sympathy between villainesses?’

’Who doesn’t want to be a good person?’

As long as it was within her power, she actually hoped that everyone around her could have a happy ending.